Personal Space

Personal space is a big catchphrase of mine. I use it A LOT with the kids. As in: Anna, you're in Jon's personal space! Or: Jonathan, that is Anna's personal space! Or: You all must need some personal space! Go to separate rooms!

I don't know where I picked this up at, but I do say it a lot.

But lately, I am starting to think I am the one who really needs the personal space... I have always required a certain amount of solitude and space to be happy, and as a mother, sometimes that is hard to find. I think I got a part time job in August partially because of my need for personal space. It is a little satisfying, but as it turns out, other than the commute back and forth, there are LOTS of people in my personal space when I am at work. And sometimes, since they are children people, they can be quite invasive of my personal space. And sometimes, they are even more demanding than my own kids.

I just feel like I am suffocating lately... in my own thoughts, in other people's thoughts, too much noise, too much stuff, too much everything. Too busy, too cluttered, too crowded, trying to do too many things at once. I started The Dooligans 4 as our family's blog, but sometimes, I just want to talk about me. And believe me, I do that on the family blog... but then I feel bad for letting my own problems and complaints speak for our whole family. And I feel like my voice sometimes gets in the way of the "Oh, look at how cute and wonderful and intelligent and creative our kids are" theme of The Dooligans 4. And whenever I change the blog, I always have to think: does this look too feminine? Too me? Or does this look like something that represents all of us? So I decided to create my own personal space. Where I can be as pink as I want to be.